There's a reason my TV is always on

Almost 2 am & what am I doing? Up.. alone.. making myself upset.
If you don't know what it's like to be without you're husband for a while (& I'm talking no communication except for an occasional letter) 1. I'm so stinking jealous of you & 2. You don't know how lonely you can be even in a house full of people.
Tonight (much like many other nights since Ryans been gone) I have tears rolling down my face & the only one to wipe them away & tell me I'm being stupid (selfish, even?) Isn't here to do it.
I can't lay on his chest with his arm around me, fingers mindlessly twirling a no-so-perfect square inch of my hair while we half-watch some TV show because he's kissing my forehead & I'm too busy focusing on his heart beat & the warmth of his skin.
That's all I want... just plain & simple. & I've come to the conclusion that, yes, I am being a bit selfish & wallowing in self-pity, but I don't care. Not really.

It is NOT Happy Memorial Day

It is not a celebration.. but a remembrance of all of those men & women who died defending our nation & fighting for our freedom.
Today is their day.. not a day off from work, a day at the lake, playing games in the yard, or shoving hamburgers down your throat.

let us not forget their names: strength, patriotism, liberty, honor, courage, duty, proud, justice, heroic, bravery, freedom...sacrifice.

"greater love has no one than this: to lay down one's life for one's friends." John 15:13

Thank you to all past, present & future military personnel.

the randomness that is me

I say what I think, so I guess I'll just type what I think too! I'm Tiffany. An old married fart.. just kidding. I'm only 22 & I still like to have fun unless I'm napping (but napping is fun, I think)! I married my high school sweetheart at 20 & we have a beautiful fur baby named Tyson (& no, he was not named after chicken nuggets). I love Jesus & I'm not afraid to let anyone know it! My handsome hubby is in the Army & I'm so proud of him! Although I'm 22, married & have a kid (shut up. he is my kid), I live with my momma & daddy because I wouldn't dare live alone!! I'm a huge chicken & I could get raped or stolen or something and that is not my idea of a good time, but it may make an interesting Law&Order:SVU episode. I like to do my hair & makeup when I'm bored. I like posting selfies and singing really loud in my car. I also really like Dr. Pepper & chocolate so I've not been successful in eating clean like I want to, but I have no excuse for not working out.
I recently found out that Ryan (ya know, my handsome hubby I was talking about) got orders for Hawaii, so WE ARE MOVING TO HAWAII!! Everyone keeps asking, "are you excited?" "how do you feel?" "HAWAII?!" or like some of my cheer girls have asked "are there cheerleaders in Hawaii?" To answer truthfully, I don't know how I feel about moving.. I'm excited to start a new adventure, yes, but I am not excited to leave behind everything I know. I'm sad I won't get to see my nephew or Ryan's brothers & sister grow up. I'm upset that I won't be able to have my daddy be my fixer-upper or just go hang out with my mom or my sister whenever I feel like it. I'm hurt that I have to leave my cheer babies behind & only be able to watch them perform if someone posts it on Facebook. & to said cheer babies, of course Hawaii has cheer leaders! What would the world be without cheerleaders?
I'm mostly happy that I will finally be with Ryan 24/7 (I hope he doesn't get sick of me) - why does this thing not have emojis??? Anyway, Tyson will have a pretty grueling time getting to Hawaii which I'm worried about. He had to get microchipped, get another rabies vaccine (which he has to wait 90 days after the vaccine to be able to enter the state), he had to have a blood test drawn & sent to Kansas to make sure his blood has no trace of rabies & he has to wait 120 days after the results are back to not be in quarantine when he finally does get there. I've read that it'll cost almost $2000 to get him into Hawaii, but I don't care. He is my baby & he is going!!
I'm gonna go write Ryan a letter. Only 11 more days until I get to see him :D